Trying to Take it Off, to Keep it On

Weather

The Weather Man called for rain all week
And, that is just fine
Cause I kept some gift certs and them still good at Target

New Blankets
Oil and Candles

I know Larenze Tate killed it on Love Jones, but that was Oh So Long ago
And, if you quizzed in the news lately, Chicago is gone the other way

Thinking and Talking about mistaken Identity
I heard we get new names upon crossing over

Thoughts

These thoughts in my mind
Wouldn’t have to write them down, if I were married to Beyonce
But, as is
Will drive me crazy, if not for the notepad

 

10 years from Now

10 years from now
She will ask me why I didn’t wait on her
And, I will say I did here is proof
The leaflets on the web says it so
I had her on and in mind all along

 

Leaves

Just like the lake here at the Merritt
The leaves blow, but never stay in one place
And, even now trying to bag them
but, then their LIFE wouldn’t hold

I got a boyfriend

She said I got a boyfriend
Why you gotta write about me
But, then I said, I write about her
But, not for her

As it stands

As it stands, she the one proper enough to read
Yet, not keep them

Tummy

She looked up and asked if I like her tummy
Her wash boy tummy
To wish I reply Yes, what is there not to like

Wish, Trip, and Strip

I could tell the way she looked
The look on her face
It Said, you know you don’t have to look at them girls on your computer screen
I could wish, trip and strip for you

Like to

In fact, I like to
Just get me new Shirt and Boy Shorts

 

Right Way

It is likely not the way to look at things
Likely should try a different move
Yet, this is less complicated
For us who bit on Bytes

 

As we drove home

Later as we drove home
She looked and said as hard as is
Having to fess
Junior likes you
And, he is my Man

So I could and would
Whore, Kill, Steal, Kiss, and Trill for you

Means and Ways

But, then I heard we got new means and ways
right after crossing over

 

Bottom Feeding

Bottom feeding on my bottom bitch all night
The weatherman call for rain
No Rain Coat
No Hard Hat
I answered back I do, before been told her last name is Adu

 

Young One

Young one said it is so easy
Grandma complaining about all the kids she left to raise
My cousins and I would get ourselves in a lot more, if it was any easier

They Was

She had a come back for every pull up
She said them 2 before you, had babies on me
Yes, they was cute
They was mixed
They was whitewashed

 

Title

He gave me a title, but forgot I got titties
He pays my bill, but forgot I got ills and needs
He found out I watch girls disrobe
But, overlook its role playing

 

Years

Like Slick, all the years
If I pull this zipper
And, though the years do add up
I held out like Red

Woke

Finally Woke
Started from “Just Say No
To “It takes a Village
Short Breath at “Reading”
Onto “Reveals who you are
Here now at “Marry Rich

 

Listening To

  1. Tauren Wills
  2. Wale
    • Family Affair
      Link
  3. Miha Sibbett
    • Something lasts forever
      Link
  4. Dionne Farris
    • Dionne Farris – Hopeless
      Link
  5. Simply Red
    • Holding Back the Years
      Link

 

Bad Health Report

On to Work

Went to work in the rain last Wednesday.

As I made it a block away from work saw J speaking to my friend.

They were deep in conversation and I decided to go be a busy body.

Upon Meeting Up

Upon meeting up with them, J committed our friend to me.

And, the friend told me about the calls he has been receiving from the clinic.

He said it has just been one bad news after another.

And, he wondered aloud why they keep telling him these things.

Things he did want to hear, not out of not caring, but out of helplessness.

Anything for him

I asked if I could do anything for him, and he said he needed a few dollars to get on the train.  That was easy enough.  The Bank is only a couple of streets over.

 

Next Day

The next day came soon enough.   J and I caught up.

And, he asked if I saw our friend that day.

I said not yet.  And, so he continued that our friend’s mother came by and saw our friend and was able to, as he said it, talk some sense to him.

 

Great Blessing

The great reward of our lives is that each day God has to have these tough conversations with its creation.  Selectively we do get to listen in.

As my years in Stephen Ministry teaches me, not talk.  But, listen.

As the end draws nearer we are reminded of what we will miss the most; this flesh and dry bones.

The look on each other faces.  The musky and dry breath of coffee.

And, the strong whiff of freshly eaten burger.

 

See The Lord

One thing we all ask is to the see the Lord in the land of the Living.
And, see the Living in the the Land of the Lord.

When our eye never meet

Friday – Nov 9th

Cousin

It started a week ago this past Friday for me.  My cousin emailed me to let me know that his parents house was one of the ones that burnt down.

 

Wednesday – Nov 14th

Young Man on a Bike

As I walked to lunch a young man pulled up besides with me.  We were both waiting for a changed light.

Don’t do so much these days, but this time I intentionally lifted up my head and we exchanged greetings.  He took up courage and asked whether I have a few dollars to spare.

I replied that I do not carry cash, but he can come up with me to the Popeyes that is standing in the City Square.  He agreed to do so.  He on his bike and I walking a bit ahead of him.

We only went twenty meters when he volunteered that he will rather go to a Pizza Store that was close enough for him to point to.

Pizza, Chicken Wings, and Soda.

And, that was that.

 

Popeyes

Made my way to Popeyes and was able to get a nice seafood dish.

Two Pieces

Chicken

Later an older man came in and asked for how much two pieces of chickens will cost.  And, how much three pieces will, as well.

The cashier told him and he started walking away.

I plodded him to go ahead and get what he wants as I have him.

Fishes

As I went to the open court area and started eating my meal.

Another older man came up and asked for money.

I said I did not have cash, but will get him something to eat.

Upon getting there, he asked for fishes; six pieces.

As they are only packaged in three pieces that meant two orders.

 

Friday – Nov 16th

Twice in One Day

Yesterday, Friday, morning was interesting.

A train broke down and was stuck on the tracks; that meant we have to get on our initial train, off board at a station, get on a bus, ride through cities during commute hours, make our way off the bus, and get back on train.

All the on and off got me close enough to work and I opted to take the scenic route; at least get to see and walk by the waters.

 

Young Salvadoran Man

As I enjoyed my free air solitude, picked up a walk mate along the way.

We became quick friends.

He had a good word for me.  And, that is “I like it that you speak to everyone“.

He continued he is :-

Unable to do so as he grew up in a small village in El Salvador.

And, ate corn all day. 

Everyone was poor and lived without work.

Everyone knows each other

And, never developed the grace of saying little nothings

We bade our good byes and he went his way and I went mine.

Another Young Man

Starbucks

Having had my morning walk I saw it fit to treat myself to a cake from Starbucks.

As I made myself inside Starbucks, a young man stood five meters from the door.

He whispered that he wanted “Banana Nut bread“.  Later he asked for two of them.

He got his two loaves of bread and I had my good work of the day as thanksgiving for the kinds words given me by the Salvadorian.

In an earlier posting I spoke of receiving two hours from another man who encouraged me towards AWS.

By the way that post is here.

 

Whole Foods

Like the book of Luke, my day is full of foods.

And, so for lunch took the laptop and headed for Whole Foods.

Gary giving me two hours ran my laptop battery down.

And, so I realized I needed my Laptop Charger.

Don’ t blame me, who wants to spend the an entire day around boring techies.

Got a nice lunch at Whole Foods and sat down to eat.

Half way through a young man came up and asked whether I can get him a coffee refill.  He said it was only a dollar.

We made our way to the counter.

But, he changed his mind and said he actually wanted something to eat.

And, I replied that he should go get what he wanted and come back and get me once he is ready to pay.

He came back and said he wanted Rotisserie Chicken and Bananas.

We picked out the Chicken and he already had Bananas.

As we were paying and I was having the Grocery Clerk know that we wanted bags, double bagged, he looked at me and said he was the same man who I brought “Banana Nut Bread” for earlier.

 

Good

For the good of the world we share, we are not handed free bags where we live.

For the good of our relationship, we let people know when we get back in line and ask for seconds.

Due to our prayer towards daily provisioning, God does not send us away.

 

Mark 6

  1.  31Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he said to them, “Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest.”
  2. 32 So they went away by themselves in a boat to a solitary place.
  3. 34 When Jesus landed and saw a large crowd, he had compassion on them, because they were like sheep without a shepherd. So he began teaching them many things.

Got out just in time

Setting

Gary and I went out for a coffee break after he had helped troubleshoot an issue I was experiencing.

He had just given me two valuable hours showing me his collection of Kindle Books.

As we walk to his coffee shop, he shared one interesting story after another.

 

Gary

Having to move

Things were good until he discovered that it had stopped raining.

Year after year, no rain.

And, he thought to himself I am out of here.  I need to be by the ocean.

A man with means, home and properties.

But, it dawned on him he might as well move before everyone else gave in.

 

AWS

His chosen destination is a city known for AWS.

Every job he applied for needed AWS & Python.

Out of work, man must walk.

 

Loss for Gain

Those two cities losses is our gain.

That is, until the fires started.

One is set a couple of hundred miles above us.

The other is in Paradise a few hundred miles below us.

 

Listening

Peter Bradley Adams – The Longer I run

Video :- Link

When my blood runs warm with the warm red wine
I miss the life that I left behind
But when I hear the sound of the blackbirds cry
I know I left in the nick of time

If I wander til I die
May I know who’s hand I’m in
If my home I’ll never find
And let me live again

Resonates

In a life hard enough

In which few are able to get out in and on time

It is good for good hearted men & women to share their own stories about getting out before having to feel guilty from just barely making it out

 

Punk’d

Background

Grew up watching the show Punk’d.

Quickly developed a boy crush on Ashton Kutcher.

He made everything look easy & smooth; forever spoilt by it.

Today

Today feeling the same way.

6:30 AM Train Ride

As I rode the train into work, a young man came in.  He immediately picked a fight over a bike parking spot.

He affirmed that the area being occupied is there for bikes and others should move; especially another man standing there.

I think, based on how the request was communicated, the current occupant refused to move.

The biker was not very happy that his wish was not immediately acquiescence.  He started shouting and clearing the pathway for a fight that he was going to pick.

He continued that he had the same problem in prison with the same people.

And, made it known his Aunt just passed last night and he was in no mood for the current state of affairs, especially today.

Unfortunately, I was standing close to the Intercom and I was elected to communicate the state of events to the Train Conductor.

I reluctantly did so.  Upon being asked by the train conductor for the Bus Number, I replied as the number was right underneath the speakers.

The Train continued on.

But, the mood did not soften.

Words was communicated to another man.  Somehow the biker guy said that this new man was not his brother either, but he looked past everyone and said I was.

At each stop, the young man with the Bike asked the other man to meet him outside so that they can settle the matter.

The spot owner refused to meet outside.

After a couple of stops, a Police Officer came in, placed handcuffs on the biker and led him off the train.

Standing outside, the Police Officer asked us whether anyone was harmed.  And, we replied No.

12:30 PM Lunch

As I went to lunch, ran into my home girl.

She was happy to see me and offered that she just came back from Down South; not far from where I grew up.

And, that she was there for two weeks.

She was walking her dog and she spit knowledge like she prone to.

Can’t talk enough about and for her.

Too deep and so let us save something for Spoken Words; in her case Toast Masters.

Less we go too far, for once, let us remain topical.

As her dog used the bathroom, a young un-sheltered lady approached and started talking at her.

The new lady let my friend know she should stop following her.

We turned around shortly after that.

We are only able to go for short spasms before we had to look back and tend to the words being spitted at us.

Finally, I had to tell the “un-sheltered” that this is my friend and if there is a problem she can take it up with me.

Gladly she replied that all she needed was 85 cents.

And, I said yes I have that.

Brothers, standing by, let us know that were being punked.

I supposed they could tell we were unaccustomed.

My friend went down the stairs to the train and the other lady and I went to the store.

As someone who never has cash, thankfully it is only $2.50 to get funds out of the ATM.

A little less than that to my new friend.

She promised to pay it back to my other friend, the next time she sees her.

Free and Clear

Family, let us continue to keep it Free and Clear.

Keep it simple.

Listening to G-Dep.

And, so that is that and this is now.

He implore us….

Have God work through us.  Never placing aside the act of contrition.

Telling people how we feel, is often considered as an act of weakness.  And, so sometimes it has to stay in same circle.  But, at least that way we get it off our shoulders.

Nothing really Intricate.

What is cool and what is not not.  What it means to be a man.

Listening

  1. Kierra ‘Kiki’ Sheard
    • Hear This – Kierra ‘Kiki’ Sheard
      Link
  2. Trin-I-Tee 5:7
    • Trin-I-Tee 5:7 – God’s Grace
      Link
  3. Kevin Michael
    • Kevin Michael – It Don’t Make Any Difference To Me (ft. Wyclef)
      Link

Addendum

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It will mean more….

 

Exactly 20 minutes ago, I rushed through the clutter of life to get to the bus stop; hoping to catch that lorry that is prayerfully 10 minutes late for everyone, but right on time for me.

As I got on the bus, I let out a smile hoping that the conductor will be accepting of my otherwise empty gratitude.

 

Takes me back to just yesterday.

Her friend had gone with us to help pick out clothes.  Knowing that my taste and hers do not match,  she had brought along a more cheerful mate.

A Barnes & Noble was not too far off and so took the opportunity to pick up reading materials.

Got a couple for mum, as well.  And, so here I am dropping off those books.

I know she will rather know we are bringing guests.

And, so upon arriving my invite to our un-attached was a bit half-hearted.

She kindly said No, and politely offered to wait in the car for us.

A few minutes later Dad came home from his afternoon walk with Latte.  Latte had refused to go that morning.  But, who can resist the California sun twice in one day.

The Dog is 14 years old now.  He was breathing heavy.  He kept his mouth open gasping for air and I noticed his worn teeth.

Latte is a pass me down from my Sisi.  I never asked if Latte knows Sin is her birth mother.

Back to our third wheel.  I went inside with Dad and he later asked if she does not want to come in.  To which I replied,  “It will mean more if it came from them“.

And, so he took upon offering the invite.  To which she kept her NO.

A few later, Mum said she would go out.

She brought the young lady in.  And, Dad offered that Mum is more persuasive than he is.  To which I retorted more pushy.

I always knew that an invite from the woman of the house, my mother, will make a world of difference.

As Dad spoke and reflected on life, I looked over at Mum and Wifey do same.

Last Christmas with the whole family over, they went over choosing mates and partners in life and love.

They don’t have to talk about it, they have lived and living it.

Something about a sermon not been preached, yet lived.

As I got up this morning, knowing the love of my life, will be gone for 3 weeks. I couldn’t quite get myself together.

We had had a busy and full weekend.  But, still there was always one more thing to say.

What I really wanted to say is what God had given me to say yesterday.  And, that was how thankful I should be to the cost my Love bears as she opens up herself for and to me.

To some opening up comes with ease; yet to others it comes guarded.

And, so here are to those things that mean more.

A lifetime ago,  God showed himself, replanted and re-souled in our lives and everything has meant more ever since.

Must be a Sunday

Morning Wake Up Call

Woke up 6:50 and I did not have to take in too much convincing.

Had gone to bed early and I was well rested.

It is Sunday morning and I might as well go in and hear from the man of God.

Brought out the clippers and got a clean shave; there is no reason keeping any of this bad hair.

 

Who they are

Made it to worship late us usual.  And, so took that empty seat at the last row.

Service was good, the pastor brought up two congregants whom faith has brought together.

His faith has held for sixteen years. Worn and Tested.

Hers has grown in a much more unruffled soil; the company of friends.

In time her faith was tested as well.

When he is the one doing the testing; everything turns out well.

Her friends were not just friends in what they believe.  But, also in whom they are.

Brother Ray

Saw Brother Ray.

Had asked for his prayers a week earlier.

Walking the hallways and sometimes there is not better place, but out there in the open.

Someone else might be encouraged by the humility of brothers saying lay your hands on me.

And, pray me in to the place of peace that you are standing in.

Thankfully things are now more settled.

One never knows what lays ahead and so when prompted by the Spirit, be sure to ask for that prayer and fellowship.

 

Brother Gary

Saw Brother Gary after Church.

Asked him to please keep us abreast of plans for laying Dad down.

And, of prayers for him; and how I will not say more than that.

He agreed that there is not much to say has we have been through it.

He said of the plans that it was actually happening this afternoon.  But, it is out of town.

In Jamaica Queens, New York.

I am just so thankful that he could have muttered Yes and held the plans to himself, but he chose not to.

And, that rendered us the opportunity to enjoin with him in Spirit.

 

Aunt Stacy & Uncle Alan

Aunt Stacy called on Friday Night.

And, so made time to go see Aunt T. on Saturday afternoon.  And, also on Sunday.

And, yes the grass needed to be trimmed in love.

And, so returned home and came back with the mower.

After Church on Sunday, came back and took care of the backyard, as well.

Just like my Hair mowed the grass down rudely and harshly.

As I returned to the front to get some more gas, saw Uncle Alan, Aunt Stacy’s husband, helping trim the edges.

He was picking up behind me.

All the stuff I rushed through while cutting the front yard, he was lovingly and affectionately placing a well.

 

Mama

Took Mama out for Sunday dinner.

Dinner was at Forbes Mills in Los Gatos.

Here is a link.

Made sure that we walked the outdoors and got Mama’s hair wet.

Worked up an appetite and took in the refreshment of the wild, tempered outdoors.

 

R.C.

Talking about Los Gatos.

RC from Cornell interviewed there a few years ago.

She gunned for the City Planner’s position.

And, it came down to her and another person.

Wouldn’t that be something if RC is the one running that city; responsible for keeping old money respectable and treasured.