Bruce Springsteen :- “the wheels can come off a little bit”

Background

Personally, there are a few people I will pay to listen to; as I know they are sharing intimately and not trying to sway.

Bruce happens to be one of those very few people.

Esquire Interview

Bruce Springsteen gets candid about his mental health issues: ‘I’m on a variety of medications’ — or ‘the wheels can come off a little bit’
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Bruce Springsteen’s memoir Born to Run detailed his long history with depression — and he’s revealing more about his mental health battle.

In a new interview with Esquire, the legendary singer, who’s wrapping up his one-man show on Broadway next month, talks a lot about growing up the son of a paranoid schizophrenic. Springsteen, 69, also gets candid about his breakdowns — the first in 1982 and another in 2009 — and how he keeps his mental health in line.

Springsteen’s relationship with his father, Doug Springsteen, cast a shadow on him for much of his life. The star got some answers late in his dad’s life, when he was finally diagnosed with schizophrenia, before dying in 1998. His father never told Bruce that he loved him and often sat brooding in silence in their family home. While his father’s diagnosis explained much that Springsteen had not understood, it also made him worry for his own mental health and his family’s.

“I have come close enough to [mental illness] where I know I am not completely well myself,” Springsteen revealed to the magazine. “I’ve had to deal with a lot of it over the years, and I’m on a variety of medications that keep me on an even keel; otherwise I can swing rather dramatically and … just … the wheels can come off a little bit. So we have to watch, in our family. I have to watch my kids, and I’ve been lucky there. It ran in my family going way before my dad.

Springsteen talked about his first breakdown when he was 32. It was the time he released Nebraska (much was about his troubled upbringing) when he was road-tripping with a friend from New Jersey to L.A. On a late summer night, they drove through a Texas town where a fair was taking place. A band was playing, couples were dancing, kids were running around, and The Boss — from his car — watched the happy scene and cracked. He still doesn’t know what it was about that exact place and time that so affected him.

“All I do know is as we age, the weight of our unsorted baggage becomes heavier … much heavier,” he said. “With each passing year, the price of our refusal to do that sorting rises higher and higher. … Long ago, the defenses I built to withstand the stress of my childhood, to save what I had of myself, outlived their usefulness, and I’ve become an abuser of their once lifesaving powers. I relied on them wrongly to isolate myself, seal my alienation, cut me off from life, control others, and contain my emotions to a damaging degree. Now the bill collector is knocking, and his payment’ll be in tears.”

He said the breakdown led him to therapy — and it transformed his life. Not long after this, as he and his wife, songstress Patti Scialfa, were expecting their first child together, Springsteen’s dad came to visit and they had a ground-breaking moment. “You’ve been very good to us. And I wasn’t very good to you,” he recalled his dad saying. (In Springsteen’s show, he called this “the greatest moment in my life, with my dad.”)

In Springsteen’s book, he wrote about a second breakdown soon after turning 60 that lasted three years, which he described as an “agitated depression.” He told Esquire that he never contemplated suicide then or at any other point in his life. However, “I once felt bad enough to say, ‘I don’t know if I can live like this.’ It was like … I once got into some sort of box where I couldn’t figure my way out and where the feelings were so overwhelmingly uncomfortable.” He had “no inner peace whatsoever.”

While he wasn’t hospitalized, maybe he should have been. “All I remember was feeling really badly and calling for help,” he said. “I might have gotten close to that and for brief, brief periods of time. It lasted for — I don’t know. Looking back on it now, I can’t say. Was it a couple weeks? Was it a month? Was it longer? But it was a very bad spell, and it just came. … And it came out of the roots that I came out of, particularly on my father’s side, where I had to cop to the fact that I also had things inside me that could lead me to pretty bad places.”

Springsteen said he never tried to take his life during his weakest moments (protesting, “No, no, no”). Then the interviewer brought up Anthony Bourdain, asking if Springsteen could understand how his suicide could have happened.

“Well, I had a very, very close friend who committed suicide,” Springsteen replied. “He was like an older son to me. I mentored him. And he got very, very ill. So, ultimately, it always remains a mystery — those last moments. I always say, Well, somebody was in a bad place, and they just got caught out in the rain. Another night, another way, someone else there … it might not have happened. They were ill, and they got caught out in the rain. … I don’t know anyone who’s ever explained satisfactorily the moments that lead up to someone taking that action. So can I understand how that happens? Yes. I think I felt just enough despair myself to — pain gets too great, confusion gets too great, and that’s your out. But I don’t have any great insight into it, and in truth, I’ve never met someone who has.”

 

Listening

  1. Bruce Springsteen
    • Bruce Springsteen – One Step Up with Lyrics
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Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)

  1. MedCircle
    • Videos
      • Video #1
        What It’s Like To Live With Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)
        Channel :- MedCircle
        Published on :- 2018-July-8th
        Link
    • Participants
      • Encina Severa
      • Kyle Kitterson
  2. DissociaDID
    • Videos
      • MEET THE ALTERS: JADE | DissociaDID | Dissociative Identity Disorder
        • Profile
          • Our first installment in the LONG awaited ‘Meet The Alters’ series! Jade stepped up to be the first one to film her intro. We hope you enjoy this look into her life and the honesty she comes with.
        • Videos
          • Video #1
            Channel :- DissociaDID
            Published on :- 2018-Ausgust-5th
            Link
        • Participants
          • Jade
            • F/Gatekeeper
          • Chloe
            • Host
        • Story
          • Margaret
            • Margaret told me I was a gate keeper
            • She said I was her daughter
            • Given a necklace
          • Young
            • God fearing
            • Read a lot
            • Shy and kept quiet
          • Ruby
            • Deal with threats
            • Role
              • Ruby
                • Deal with physical fights
              • Jade
                • Deal with verbal assault
                • I will let you know if you have gone too far
          • Sally
          • Chloe
            • Choices
              • martyr/Foolish
                • Die that way
              • Stand up for self
      • MEET THE ALTERS: SALLY | DissociaDID | Dissociative Identity Disorder
        • Profile
          • Our second video in the Meet The Alters Series – Get to know Sally, an age slider and a protector in our System.
        • Videos
          • Video #1
            Channel :- DissociaDID
            Published on :- 2018-October-21st
            Link
        • Personality
          • Inner World
          • Mythical Wisdom
          • Season
            • Mostly Spring and a little Summer
          • Eaten & drank enough
          • Generation
            • Started at Age of 15
            • 7 year
          • Age Slider
            • Age of 24 and 27
          • Safe and Gentle
            • Not all the time
          • Not Assimilate the bitterness we have experienced in the World
        • Personalities
          • Gregory
          • Nadia
          • Jade
          • Chloe
          • Ruby
            • Raised Jade

Hospice Care within the Prison System

Videos

  1. Justin on Serving LIFE
    • Profile
      • Watch Justin Granier serve as a Hospice Volunteer while he serves his mandatory life without parole sentence.
    • Videos
      • Part 1
        Published On :- 2017-Jan-16th
        Channel :- Maria Dunnigan
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      • Part 2
        Published On :- 2017-Jan-16th
        Channel :- Maria Dunnigan
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        • Participants
          • Volunteers
            • Justin Granier
            • Shaheed
            • Albert Lavalais
          • Cared for
            • Walter Chance
  2. Angola Prison Hospice : Opening the Door
    Published On :- 2011-Sept-8th
    Channel :- Open Society Foundations
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  3. Free at last
    Profile :- This story is about the pioneering hospice program at the Louisiana State Prison and its impact on the culture of what was once called America’s Bloodiest Prison. Videography by Hank Bargine.
    Channel :- Pat Woodard
    Date Published :- 2013-Feb-6th
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  4. An interview with Warden Burl Cain – Louisiana State Penitentiary, Angola, La.
    Profile :- An interview with Warden Burl Cain – Louisiana State Penitentiary, Angola, La.
    Channel :- Maranatha Baptist
    Date Published :- 2012-Oct-23rd
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Indepth

Angola Prison Hospice : Opening the Door

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Half of the 5,000 inmates at the maximum-security Louisiana State Penitentiary at Angola are serving life sentences, and it is estimated that 85 percent of them will grow old and die there. Edgar Barens’s documentary examines one of the nation’s first prison-based hospice programs, a program that notably incorporates inmate volunteers into the care of other dying inmates.

Angola Prison Hospice: Opening the Door was produced by two former OSF programs, the Center on Crime, Communities & Culture and the Project on Death in America.

Quotes

Justin on Serving LIFE

Part 1

Part 2

  1. Burl Cain, Warden
    • Deeds
      • He did a horrible thing, he put somebody in the grave
      • But, I could not undo that
      • Nobody can
    • Best
      • We just do the best we can while they are here with us
      • And, so we are going to do the right thing
    • Care
      • Don’t nobody wants to be cared for
      • Don’t nobody wants to be forgotten
    • One another
      • So we are gonna to take care of one another
      • I am going to dig your grave and somebody else is going to dig mine
  2. Trainer Conversation
    • You suppose to love that dud
    • I thought he was going to be around a lot longer
    • There is not too much you can get
    • Now is just in you, you have gotten everything you can get from it
  3. Shaheed
    • Hospice Volunteer
    • Relationships
      • Importance of relationships, family relationships
      • Family Bonds
    • Self
      • I might be headstrong
      • I might want to live this thing out by myself
        • Like Mr. Fred did
    • I have been an idiot
    • Helping one live life out with love
    • Bible College
      • One year in already in Bible College
    • Burden
      • I don’t want to be a burden to you
    • Lesson Learnt
      • It takes a certain to degree to burn metal, just like it takes to burn water
      • I was filthy
      • I was an impure person
      • Now I am able to help myself
      • That is what I needed
  4. Kevin’s Passing
    • Volunteer #1
      • Seeing so many come see Kevin made me want to think that just may be in my last days others will come see me, as well
  5. Shaheed
    • I have heard Hospice refer to helping someone die with dignity
    • But, more that that, it is helping one live out there lives in love
  6. Burl Cain
    • For Others
      • It is the opposite of caring about self
      • And, that is the redemption
      • And, that is the rehabilitation
    • I
      • I did something good
      • I did something for somebody else
  7. Albert Lavalais
    • Giving back is what really matters
    • What I need I threw that out a long time ago
  8. Hospice Care
    • Snapin #1
      • Know that each patient is going to transition
      • And, he is going to do soon
      • He has an incurable disease
    • Snapin #2
      • Forgive in other to be forgiven
    • Snapin #3
      • Care
    • Snapin #4
      • Justin
        • Infraction
      • Ms. Sandy
        • Ms. Sandy thinks highly of you
      • Quit?
        • I will be quitting on the men I gave my word to
        • On the Street
          • More on medicin
        • Here
          • Taking care of the men
    • Snapin #5
      • Family
        • Son came to visit
      • Hard
        • Hard to see somebody wither away, but you got to be there
    • Snapin #6