Bad Health Report

On to Work

Went to work in the rain last Wednesday.

As I made it a block away from work saw J speaking to my friend.

They were deep in conversation and I decided to go be a busy body.

Upon Meeting Up

Upon meeting up with them, J committed our friend to me.

And, the friend told me about the calls he has been receiving from the clinic.

He said it has just been one bad news after another.

And, he wondered aloud why they keep telling him these things.

Things he did want to hear, not out of not caring, but out of helplessness.

Anything for him

I asked if I could do anything for him, and he said he needed a few dollars to get on the train.  That was easy enough.  The Bank is only a couple of streets over.


Next Day

The next day came soon enough.   J and I caught up.

And, he asked if I saw our friend that day.

I said not yet.  And, so he continued that our friend’s mother came by and saw our friend and was able to, as he said it, talk some sense to him.


Great Blessing

The great reward of our lives is that each day God has to have these tough conversations with its creation.  Selectively we do get to listen in.

As my years in Stephen Ministry teaches me, not talk.  But, listen.

As the end draws nearer we are reminded of what we will miss the most; this flesh and dry bones.

The look on each other faces.  The musky and dry breath of coffee.

And, the strong whiff of freshly eaten burger.


See The Lord

One thing we all ask is to the see the Lord in the land of the Living.
And, see the Living in the the Land of the Lord.

Cyntoia Brown



Cyntoia Brown, a woman serving a life sentence for killing a man when she was a 16-year-old prostitute, enters her clemency hearing, May 23, 2018, at Tennessee Prison for Women in Nashville, Tenn.


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  1. 15 Year old killer girl’s story Full Documentary
    • Videos
      • Video #1
        Channel :- Emi Hamm
        Published On :- 2015-April-29th
  2. To  be released
    • Profile
      • Cyntoia Brown has been granted clemency by Tennessee Governor Bill Haslam. A Tennessee newspaper says she will be released from prison on August 7, 2019. Brown, an alleged victim of childhood sex trafficking, was sentenced to life in prison for the murder of a man who solicited sex from her when she was 16-years-old. “This decision comes after careful consideration of what is a tragic and complex case. Cyntoia Brown committed, by her own admission, a horrific crime at the age of 16. Yet, imposing a life sentence on a juvenile that would require her to serve at least 51 years before even being eligible for parole consideration is too harsh, especially in light of the extraordinary steps Ms. Brown has taken to rebuild her life. Transformation should be accompanied by hope. So, I am commuting Ms. Brown’s sentence, subject to certain conditions.” In a statement released by her lawyers, Brown thanked Haslam “for your act of mercy in giving me a second chance.”
    •  Videos
      • Video #1
        Channel :- Wochit Politics
        Published On :- 2019-Jan-7th


15 Year old killer girl’s story Full Documentary

  1. Grandmother
    • Sometimes it is easier to adopt a child than to keep it
  2. Mother
    • All I wanted was someone to show me something
    • If you can’t feed them, how in the hell can you raise them
  3. case worker
    • Physical abuse
    • Sexual abuse
      • affects a  person later


Freedom Project


I can actually help people


Fight For Freedom


Till 67 years old…


Convicted of Murder And Robbery


No Hate

When God speaks to each of our hearts and we get on a bandwagon, there ain’t no hate.

No getting off that Bus!

Everything that can be shaken / 2018-Dec

Train Ride

As I came home this evening,  got on the wrong train. I intentionally did so as I did not want to wait around 10 minutes for my train.

Missed my jump off.  And, got off on the next one.

Switched directions and was good.

A young man was talking to himself and in between played his music a bit loud.

Made sure not to look in his direction.

And, doubly made sure “No eye contact”.

Finally, eye contact was forced as he intentionally bumped into me on his way to the “Standing Room” on the Train Bus.

The eye contact was affectionate and affirming. The way things are supposed to be.

He made ruckus with a few people.  Stared into an older man and threatened to beat him, if he hears anything.

As he got off the train, he spoke of looking forward to the day we get to see him on TV.

Thanksgiving Dinner

Takes me back to Thanksgiving dinner at my big brother’s home. Made friends with a man visiting from a foreign country.

He told me how bad things are in his country of origin.  A made man, yet he was scared about forthcoming elections. He deployed all the corruption and said that there will be wide unrest if things don’t get better.

I asked him if faith, specifically the religion we share can help.

He replied NO, and continued that he does not think so; the problems are simply too big.

Bruce Springsteen


“A lot of what’s going on has been a large group of people frightened by the changing face of the nation,” Springsteen told Esquire magazine in a separate interview. “There seems to be an awful lot of fear.”

The founding fathers were pretty good at confronting their fears and the fears of the country. And it’s the old cliché where geniuses built the system so an idiot could run it. We are completely testing that theory at this very moment. I do believe we’ll survive. But I don’t know if I see a unifying figure on the horizon. That worries me.”

I don’t know if there is a way to really bring those jobs back and I think that’s what’s causing so much anxiety to so many Americans,” he said.

Springsteen talked his father’s experience to illustrate what he understood as reason for the  frustrations of voters.

“My father worked as a 16-year-old floor boy in the rug mill, then went off to war,” Springsteen told the Times. “When he came home, they shut the rug mill down, and he went to work on the Ford Motor plant line in New Brunswick. He worked in the Nescafé plant in Freehold. Worked in the plastics factory in town, he was a truck driver, a bus driver, drove a taxi.”

“I don’t know precisely what I’m going to do this time, but I tend to think the more you make yourself available, perhaps the less weight your word carries,” he said.

Bible Verses

Hebrews 12:26-29 ( Link )

At that time his voice shook the earth, but now he has promised, “Once more I will shake not only the earth but also the heavens.”

The words “once more” indicate the removing of what can be shaken—that is, created things—so that what cannot be shaken may remain.

Let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe

2nd Peter 2:10-11 ( Link )

Therefore, my brothers and sisters, make every effort to confirm your calling and election. For if you do these things, you will never stumble

Abigail Adams :- “Remember the Ladies”


In a letter dated March 31, 1776Abigail Adams writes to her husband, John Adams, urging him and the other members of the Continental Congress not to forget about the nation’s women when fighting for America’s independence from Great Britain.

The future First Lady wrote in part, “I long to hear that you have declared an independency. And, by the way, in the new code of laws which I suppose it will be necessary for you to make, I desire you would remember the ladies and be more generous and favorable to them than your ancestors. Do not put such unlimited power into the hands of the husbands. Remember, all men would be tyrants if they could. If particular care and attention is not paid to the ladies, we are determined to foment a rebellion, and will not hold ourselves bound by any laws in which we have no voice or representation.

Nearly 150 years before the House of Representatives voted to pass the 19th Amendment giving women the right to vote, Adams letter was a private first step in the fight for equal rights for women. Recognized and admired as a formidable woman in her own right, the union of Abigail and John Adams persists as a model of mutual respect and affection; they have since been referred to as “America’s first power couple.”

Their correspondence of over 1,000 letters written between 1762 and 1801 remains in the Massachusetts Historical Society and continues to give historians a unique perspective on domestic and political life during the revolutionary era.

Abigail bore six children, of whom five survived. Abigail and John’s eldest son, John Quincy Adams, served as the sixth president of the United States.

Only two women, Abigail Adams and Barbara Bush, have been both wives and mothers of American presidents.

Ending it all.

Bearing the news

I ran into a friend this weekend.

He tapped my shoulders and fessed that I might not see him much longer.

He continued that he is thinking of ending it all.

He caught my attention and I looked him straight.

My look must have betrayed my feeling.

The immediacy of my thinking as to why.

He responded that he has AIDS.  His HIV had transformed into full blown Aids.

He furthered that he takes 24 pills a day.

Sharing the news

He said he called his mum and told her there was no more reason to stay here, alive.

And, that the next world must be better than this one.

He spoke of being so dispirited as he opens up and shares the news.

And, how the part that pains him the most is how people kept him at bay and how they no longer wanted to shake his hands.

Yes, some people embraced him.  But, they did not want “Skin to Skin” contact.


Losing the Glow

He spoke of being destruct.

The only thing he felt good about is keeping AIDS at Bay.

But, now that his HIV status has transitioned to full AIDS he no longer even has that.

I asked him how he found out and he said that he knew something was wrong has he started losing weight and that he has already lost 50.


Listening to

  1. Blaine Larsen
    • Blaine Larsen – How Do You Get That Lonely
  2. Ronan Keating
    • When you say nothing at all



I like it when there is nothing to say.

I have another friend, Michael, who has AIDS, as well.

And, he always reminds me of “Perfect Love“.

Drake And Lessons in Life


For me there are so few people that I can actually journey through life with.

Drake with his vulnerability happens to be one of them.


  1. Album :- Scorpion
    • Inspiration
      • Videos


  1. Drake
    • Into You
      • I took that energy and put it into me
    •  Career
      • “I think maybe one of my biggest concerns in my career is just to figure out how to exit gracefully,” Drake explains. “I’ve watched people overstay their welcome, and I just don’t ever want to be that guy that’s addicted to the feeling of victory, addicted to the emotion of people digesting something that they love, and get to the point I’m just feeding them something and they’re just like, ‘Yeah…'”
        • Videos
    • Chris Brown
      • Drake Says He Doesn’t Want To Be Associated With Chris brown
      • Quotes
        • In an interview with GQ Drake is asked about the altercation with Chris Brown, he said: “I hear he has everything he could want now. I don’t want my name to be synonymous with that guy’s name. I really don’t. I wish we could sit down, just like you and me are right now, and talk it out man-to-man. But that’s not going to happen.”
        • Date Published :- 2013-June
        • Links
    • Meek Mill
      • “This really gave me peace of mind tonight. Healing and moving forward created one of the most electric and gratifying moments of my career,” he wrote. “@meekmill I’m happy that you are home and that we could find our way back to our joint purpose.”
  2. Jayceon Terrell Taylor
    • I know all about losses



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